still repeating

i felt the need to say it again.

to you

god has a plan for you
you and your dreams matter
you were made to succeed
you have what it takes

don't give up

he's home!

our new little man whom i wrote about a month or so ago has come home
we've had another little guy staying with us. his name is (affectionately) bob
yesterday before the new guy came home, bob, at about 10.5lb seemed positively tiny
now, not so much.

baby S is only 4.2lb but doing remarkably well! he is COVERED in hair (sideburns already) and just adorable. please keep praying for him!

perfect morning

blessed rain storm! we will be cooled...

“Don’t say you don’t have enough time. You have exactly the same number of hours per day that were given to Louis Pasteur, Michaelangelo, Da Vinci, and Albert Einstein.” ~H. Jackson Brown

sometimes you need some beauty

repetition

god has a plan for you
you and your dreams matter
you were made to succeed
you have what it takes

no matter what i start out saying
this is where i arrive

a few shachah moments

readiness

best lit cross of love i've ever done

photos courtesy of akiphotos.com

don't be afraid.

philosophies of teaching

"I regard it as the foremost task of education to ensure the survival of these qualities:
an enterprising curiosity,
an undefeatable spirit,
tenacity in pursuit,
readiness for sensible self denial,
and above all, compassion."
- Kurt Hahn

fail2010

inundated with other people's ideas and philosophies on teaching
on ballet
on art
on life
i have lost myself
and in turn taught the worst class of my life

tomorrow i search for me

i just finished making my first syllabus for the fall
i can't believe i'm doing this
pretending in a way
and knowing that god has so faithfully equipped me to go forward and...impart?
or something

i've been studying quite a bit
and have even been required to write a brief essay to fulfill hiring requirements
i feel like i'm in school again
much more than i did when i was actually in school

i've had the pleasure of again reading through some of agrippina vaganova's work
her insight into ballet
and my own application of how it all applies to real life
has been refreshing and eye opening
it fits into a neat and tidy box with parallels so parallel i cannot ask for more
god has been teaching me many things as i study the art and science of teaching this dance form

i leave you with this and a photo of my newest hero. i think we would have gotten on quite well.

"look at life all around; everything is growing, everything is moving forward. therefore i recommend... keeping in touch with life and with art."

this is just the beginning

newman

we have a new little man under our care
the circumstances surrounding him are awesome
we are marveling at god's goodness and plan
little man is in the hospital because he was too small at birth
he'll likely be there for a month or so
please pray for quick gaining of weight
protection against the enemy who already tried to devour his life
and no complications of any kind

he has no name yet
i'm rooting for zadok or ezekiel

sleep has fixed most problems.
we all feel like humans again
even the babies needed rest

everyone except tom...who believes in napping for 3 hours at a time.

i dreamt that i was teaching at belhaven but everything was new and different and the kids were second graders with crazy parents. caleb was intimidating me (???) and the facilities were retarded with two classes in one room and living room furniture for barres with bottles that cut and parents threatening to sue.

dad asked sarcastically if i was stressed about all the changes in my life

then mom and dad asked together "why??"

and i laughed, explained my anxiety and felt better


in other news, we fixed rin's hairless problem.

off kilter

the rains are here
it makes dancing difficult
it's hard to breathe in water

shota won't nap today

the skin on my hands and feet hate me

it's hard to function when a part of your epidermis is falling off

tomorrow will be better