go go go

i realized today that i rarely spend more than a few weeks in one place without some sort of road trip, cross country trip, across the world trip... so these last 2+ months (i know...it's not that long...:) mark a significant period of just being in one place without moving around and kind of being "grown up" with a job and whatnot. needless to say i'm itching to get away and woke up this morning so excited that i'll be GOING again.

i kind of have a split personality when it comes to going. i love staying home and being in my space with people that i love...but going seems to be in my blood and i cannot escape it. who knows if i'm this way because i've always been this way or my years at belhaven ingrained in me that art of moving from place to place without ever really settling down.

i've always thought that once i'm married with children and house i wouldn't feel the need to go, that i would finally feel "at home". i've been nannying for a french woman who lives here in SA and she said no, the need to go home, to travel and move never leaves. and there is always dissatisfaction because france is no longer home and san antonio just isn't it either. so perhaps we my need for travel can simply be translated as a search for home...if anything my life in san antonio has only fed my desire to go.

or maybe, looking at the big picture, it's just my destiny, my calling, my lot, whatever you want to call it, to travel, to move, to know different things so that i can truly appreciate the constants in my life...

my baby needs me. time to go